Happy New Year 2011

Yesterday was the first day of the year 2011. In a way, I found the time lapsed so fast that I am writing again to mark the coming of a new year after the previous writing to mark the end of the last decade (http://digitelwerk.blogspot.com/2009/12/another-decade-gone.html).

The year 2010 wasn't really a great one as I was still uncertain of the path I'm going to chart. At one point, I was almost certain of becoming a civil servant until I was deemed unqualified by a team of two interview panels at the final stage. As I slowly accept the fact, I found out that I am too unqualified to make some stupid decisions as proved by the top officials in making some of the crucial decisions for the country.

That was for the so-called premiere management post. While on the technical side, it was really a contrary for the government to urge more professionals to serve the country when I (and quite a number of my fellows) who were (and are) waiting to be absorbed as a permanent staff in the public service. Having worked on award winning project and in an award winning corporate company does not really guarantee a place in the public service, where to construct a single storey building is still a big challenge for their engineers, let alone the contractors who are busy calculating how to divide the contract sum, within the safe factor amongst the parties involved, that in return will secure them of more future contracts (so they'll continue to be called contractor). What? To build? They just don't care. That's why it's a big challenge to build that single storey building at the first place.

2010 was also the year that matured me in photography. Not that I'm saying my photos are getting better and better (in fact it's stale) as I don't really have the chance to learn more. I am made to believe of a better prospect to be a good photographer but in the end it was all lies. Always, I was left behind whenever there's any opportunity for a photography session that could result me in learning anything new or just improves my skills.

Worse, I am feeling of being cheated financially to take up jobs that are up until today, I am yet to receive the full payment. Worst, one of them is acting as if I never did him any favor by being his photographer for his wedding in the last minute with the fee he repeatedly suggested for me to accept, and yet until today, he still keeps me in the dark over the payment for the work delivered.

Now, I am back at the private practice and hoping that it will bring me to a new level in my career. Photography will remain as my hobby, as what it started as and most likely no more than that. Probably that will make me more happy this year hence the title - 'Happy' New Year.